Las Cruces Bowling Massacre: Audrey Teran talks about 25 years

ABC-7 went to Silver City to talk to Audrey Martinez Teran, the mother and wife of three victims killed in the Las Cruces Bowling Alley Massacre.

“I would have been a grandma,” Teran said. “Would they have married? “Would they have kids? I just miss what their life would have been.”

Martinez Teran still visits her daughters, 6-year-old Paula, 2-year-old Valerie, and her late husband Steven Teran’s grave.

“About a dozen times a year,” Martinez Teran said. “I would say for the first 20 years, I started healing.”

Since that fateful morning, Martinez Teran has moved back to her hometown in Silver City. She said it was time to move back home, get away from Juarez, be with family.

“I never thought I’d be here for 25 years, “Its been hard. My memory, my body — I just haven’t felt good. I think its all the prayers. To this day. I still get condolences. I still get prayers. And I think that’s what’s been feeding me.”

For her two living children and husband, Audrey has chosen to hand over the hope of finding the two men that shot her family. After 25 years, she still believes someone owed money, and the bowling alley killers wanted to make a point. They just ran into too many victims.

“I’m not saying I’ve given up hope,” Martinez Teran said. “I just got to move on with my life. For my health, number one, and for my family.”

Audrey still visits Valarie, Paula and Steven. She always will.

“After a while I did feel, I just feel that we were going to make it to the 25th,” Martinez Teran said. “That we were at the 20th year, and we’re going to be here at the 25th. I wish it was better news, or that we had somebody, but it just hasn’t happened and for some reason I don’t know maybe the Lord wants to tell me personally.”