Sugar Detox: Day 18

Day 18: It’s the kind of binge that only Charlie Sheen would be proud of.

See the pie in the picture to the left? It looks like something you would have seen in the candy-filled room in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. And it tasted even better.

Maybe I should back up. It all started with a horrible morning at work. When I feel like a failure, typically I try to literally drown my sorrows in so much sugar and chocolate that the only thing I can feel is my waistline expanding, instead of my resounding disappointment.

My super-premeditated-binge-of-awesome took me to Village Inn. I sat down and before the server could even get my drink order, I informed him of my mission to drown my sorrows in pie and pancakes.

This is how pathetic I am. I asked him to bring me a piece of Mint Brownie Blast pie before he even asked what I wanted to eat.

He brought me a Coke, a slice of that sweet delicious piece of heaven, and he took my order for double blueberry pancakes with sausage.

It was the only meal I ate today, but I basically consumed more sugar in one hour than I have had in the past week.

Here’s the damage. The entire meal had 1645 grams of sodium, 1960 calories, and a whopping 194 grams of sugar.

After the meal, I thought I would feel horrible. Aside from generally feeling sluggish and over-stuffed, I felt great. I was soaring on my sugar high. I was back to my normal bouncy bubbly self that I haven’t seen since I started this diet.

I went back to work and for the next three hours I was a non-stop news machine. I had so much energy I wanted to do cartwheels around the news room.

Then, it came.

It was the most intense sugar crash I’ve ever had in my whole life. It made that Wendy’s binge I had on day ten look like a Toostie Roll next to a Godiva bar. My afternoon nap turned into a seven hour full on sleep cycle. I woke up feeling wretched and so full of shame I almost cried.

I feel like I mastered my sugar cravings in my day to day life, but the first real emotional test I had, I failed miserably.

I’ve decided for the remainder of my sugar detox, I am going to create a slideshow of everything single thing I put in my mouth. There will be a link to it once I start on the main sugar detox page.

I never realized how much I depended on sugar to alleviate emotional pain. I guess now that I understand it, I can stop it. I just have no idea how.